HARD!

This is all too hard. I really thought I could do it…and I really thought I would be okay….I couldn’t and I wasn’t. I was anything but okay at midnight as I strolled down by Lake Michigan by myself. I was anything but okay as I tried to think past all the happy couples that I had seen at the wedding. I may have cried. It may have been too much to handle too close to my Friday’s doctor appointment. Even though I love this girl (my friend who got married this weekend) more than anything…I may have wished that I didn’t come and that makes me feel like such a horrible person and friend. I don’t want to be angry because they are happy, but I am.